Introduction: The Weight of Uncertainty
There was a season in my life where everything felt heavy at once. I was balancing finances, family responsibility, and deep uncertainty. During that time, I felt the pressure of needing to keep going, even when things didn’t make sense.
A Season of Struggle as a Student
During my internship, I joined a small company that paid USD 150. For a Computer Science student trying to survive, this amount was honestly very little. At the time, I had to travel daily between two cities which was a journey of about 40km one way. Because my parents lived there, transport alone became a massive financial burden.
Things at home were not easy either. The previous year, my father had been forced to take early retirement, and the financial impact was immediate. Consequently, I had to pay the remaining portion of my university fees myself. With six children in our family, every dollar mattered. There was pressure not just to survive, but to help my family where I could.
Reflection: Finding Strength in Weakness
As I look back on that USD 150 season, I am reminded of a powerful message by Priscilla Shirer. She often teaches that God’s greatest work is done when we realize we aren’t enough on our own.
In this video, she explains why we can actually “boast” in our weakness because those gaps in our finances and abilities are exactly where God makes room for His miracles.
Listening to teachers like Priscilla helped me keep my faith rooted when my bank account was empty.
The Unexpected Breakthrough
After about four months, something unexpected happened. My supervisor took a job abroad and left the organization. Instead of recruiting an experienced outsider, the CEO hand-picked me to take over as the organization’s lead IT resource.
Although there were other interns, I was the one selected. With that choice came a better salary and more responsibility. But God wasn’t done yet.
God’s Provision and Favour
When I returned to university for my final year, I was allowed to keep my job and continue receiving my salary. Because of this income, I could:
- Pay my remaining tuition fees.
- Cover my rent and food while at school.
- Relieve the financial pressure at home.
During this season, I finally bought my first laptop. Before that, I relied on a tablet my sister had bought for me on credit. It wasn’t ideal, but it was all we had. God used what was available until He provided better.
A Testimony of Favour
As if that wasn’t enough, I also received an opportunity I never imagined: I boarded a plane for the first time. During my final year at university, I traveled for strategy sessions between different cities. To me, it was a testimony. God had lifted me into rooms and experiences I never could have planned for myself.
“And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.” — Philippians 4:19
Conclusion: God Is Faithful
Looking back, I can confidently say that God came through for me. He answered my prayers not just with provision, but with opportunity, favor, and growth. I was able to support my family and keep going when things could have easily fallen apart.
This season reminded me of the truth I later reflected on in Rooted Again: God’s Plan for New Beginnings that God is always at work, even when we cannot see it.
I have seen His greatness countless times, and this season marked me forever. If you are in a difficult season right now, trust that God is already preparing your breakthrough.
Frequently Asked Questions
How do I trust God when everything feels uncertain?
Trusting God in uncertainty begins with choosing faith daily, even when clarity is absent. Scripture reminds us:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.”
— Proverbs 3:5–6
Trust doesn’t mean understanding everything — it means believing God is faithful even when the path ahead is unclear.
What does the Bible say about God’s provision in difficult seasons?
The Bible consistently affirms that God is attentive to our needs and faithful to provide:
“And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.”
— Philippians 4:19
God’s provision may not always look how we expect, but it is always sufficient for the season we are in.
Why does God allow seasons of struggle before breakthrough?
Scripture shows that growth often happens before visible blessing. Difficult seasons refine our faith and prepare us for what’s next:
“The testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”
— James 1:3–4
God uses struggle not to harm us, but to strengthen and prepare us.
How can I stay hopeful when prayers seem unanswered?
When answers feel delayed, it doesn’t mean God is absent. His timing often differs from ours:
“Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”
— Psalm 27:14
Hope grows when we trust that God is still working behind the scenes, even in silence.
Can God really use my current situation for something greater?
Yes. God frequently uses challenging seasons to shape purpose and direction.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him.” — Romans 8:28
What feels like delay today may be preparation for tomorrow.
What should I do when my resources feel insufficient?
God often begins with what we already have and multiplies it through obedience and faith.
“And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things… you will abound in every good work.” — 2 Corinthians 9:8
Scarcity does not limit God’s ability to provide.
Is it okay to feel tired while still believing God?
Yes. Scripture acknowledges weariness and offers comfort without judgment.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” — Matthew 11:28
Faith and fatigue can coexist.
